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[25 Feb 2007|03:04am]
[ mood | busy ]

my granny... (aka the woman i lived with after i was kicked out with and lived with... she had a stroke when i was at the ferry terminal heading to whistler... tis past sunday she had a heart attack adn now she's in multiple organ failure... i dont know how long i can take this

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[30 Oct 2006|09:09pm]
[ mood | content ]

whats up losers... just letting you all know im still kicking... not quite dead yet. life is fucking awesome right now... school is wicked brutal but im hanging in there studying my ass off and pulling late nights (9 oclock WOAH) and pulling 2 part time jobs.... still with dj so all is well in hilary land

im out
gotta study for my bus midterm tomorrow
wish me luck

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[08 Aug 2006|07:29pm]
ok so im pretty sure that i have the most amazing best friends ever....

asia... youve been there through everything and youre the sister ive never had

hannah... you are ridiculous and understand absolutely anythiny that i throw at you

gwen... you are the entertainer of my life... its never dull moment when youre around

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[24 Jul 2006|09:13am]
[ mood | cranky ]

massive fights this weekend with sister....which hasnt happened in ages.. total bitch... like its seriously not fair to watch tv downstairs adn then bitch at me for watching it upstairs because you were taping something.... fuck off and get off your royal ass bitch... cant hog both tvs adn if you want to watch what your taping then fucking watch it instead of the other shit for fucks sake.. adn then theres dj who was such a  fucking prick all weekend... i cried myself to sleep... ive had jut asbout enough of this shit from everybody for a while... asia i cant wait till you get to town so i can fucking let loose and have some fun for once

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[22 Jul 2006|02:33pm]

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[21 Jul 2006|07:56pm]
[ mood | hot ]

i got a sliver in my fucking goddam ass.

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[24 Jun 2006|03:57pm]
ok for everybody who doesnt know my birthday is on the 28 and i want everybody and there friends to come out and party.... so call my cell 8895283 for details on where we are... i think we're meeting at montys at some time.... i dunno what is normal going-out-to-the-bar time..... any ideas?

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[18 Jun 2006|06:06pm]

my granny is really sick. she keeps getting sicker what with her heart disease and parkensons... she fired her in-home nurses because she felt wierd about a stranger being in her house all the time.... so for the next 3 weeks my dad has to live over at her place with her. everything is so messed up.... my 19th birthday is in 10 days and now i just dont care... it seems so unimportant. 

today i felt total guilt and shame about myself like that that i used to have back with i was sick. i feel fat adn gross and just dont know what to do. i feel like my priorities are all out of whack like ive let my friends adn family down. i feel like shit maybe im with the wrong guy doing hte wrong thing. what if what im doing with my life is all wrong for me. i havent talked ot my asia is ages and now i feel like im falling apart and i dont know who to talk. gwen is moving to uclulet tomorrow morning and wont be back until september. dj and i keep fighting about nothing. my dads gone. my granny MINE not moiras MINE is dieing.... 

everything that i thought i knew how to do i cant....
i dont know what to do anymore

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[12 Jun 2006|07:18pm]
today started off really rough with me having to go home sick from work due to my stomache.. but i came home and slept and all in all it turned into a good day with me buying marc jacobs sunglasses and a primp shirt... 

i dont know what primp shirt to get but i want one.. so lemme know which one you think.... and what color


i think im torn between the anchors and the horses

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[11 Jun 2006|05:47pm]
[ mood | exanimate ]

today has gotta me one of the worst days lately... dj kept bitching at me all day... it was so useless even trying to make sense out of what he was whining about. argh now im jsut tired and sore from surger with a headache... stupid jackass

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[25 May 2006|08:12am]
hannah and gwen and everybody get back today... im mad stoked... and work is amazing and dj is amazing... and asia i love you hang tough little soldier... man life feels so... simple and wonderful all at the same time

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[04 May 2006|07:27pm]

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[26 Apr 2006|09:10pm]
dj is in utah... he called me twice tonight but my ringer was turned off... i missed the calls and when i got the messages i started crying because i am such a loser... to make matters worse when going up to my mom to try and explain what was going on i tripped over a bag of dog food and landed on my ass on the kitchen floor crying and laughing.... god im priceless....

i miss my boo

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[23 Apr 2006|06:03pm]

scott you're right... they are so hot

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[23 Apr 2006|02:56pm]
[ mood | stoked ]

life is so wicked right now.. my mommy gets back from the vegas today and i get to see what she brought me and i get to see her cuz i miss her like woah .... plus today was spent with asia spending countless amounts of money on 7 jeans and shirts from rebel rebel and hair bobbles and the best thing of all.. discovered new amaing jewellery(sp?) store on goverment street which is awesome and bought rest of sis's bday pressy... she's gonna love it... audios im outty

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[07 Apr 2006|07:22am]
[ mood | distressed ]

this week has been horrible... first molly sue... and now summer and seth... what is tv coming too?

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[27 Mar 2006|07:31am]
[ mood | busy ]

ok so in the past 5 days one of the ladies i used to babysit for, her dad died along with *2 days later* her husbands dad... so for the next week i will be living with her 4 kids and 2 dogs in order of a pro-longerd babysitter experience while her and her husband are in vancouver sorting out everything... i also will be working fulltime during the days from mon-fri... if you need to get a hold of me for any reason call my cell 8895283 and if i dont answer just leave it on and i will do my darndest to call you back

goddam... this will be a crazy busy week... but all in all i just feel so sorry for the kids.... can you imagine what this must feel like?

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[22 Mar 2006|07:27am]
thank you guys so much for the support/positive comments... you all rock my life... much love

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[21 Mar 2006|08:57am]
i think im going to be ok... i feel kinda strangely liberated.... i feel like for hte first time in weeks/monthes i can breath... i no longer have to work with coke-heads who force me to do things i dont want to do.. i can quite smoking and wont have co-workers or a boyfriend pressuring me into lighting up and i wont do drugs because a) i dont want to and b) i cant get them for free and in a moments notice... life just seems so mch simplier and better... its the perfect time for me to move on to my new job... oh yah.. i quit eugenes yesterday and start peppers on monday next week... this whole change thing feels right... finally like im slowly pieceing my life back together... im not a trainwreck like this time last year... im not drinking so mask my emotions.. im not getting high so feel... im eating regular meals and not purging.. my body is full and my spirits are high... i think im going to be alright

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[18 Mar 2006|08:30pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

its over.... he said he didnt love me....

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